here we are again.

Nothing has changed. Still high blood sugar. Still high cholesterol. Still acid reflux. Still uncomfortable in my own skin. Still continually short of breath. I've been to a nutritionist, a dietician and now am in a four week group called 'food and mood". Basically the groups is nine women. Seven have type 2 diabetes. Two of us have high blood sugar. We are all overweight. We all have our issues. We are learning that we have formed pathways in our brain that need to be changed. Imagine I walk to work everyday and I go the same way. The grass gets trampled down, the path is obvious and easy. Then I change it up. I learn a new way. I practice and practice and soon the new way is the easy way. This is how I need to be thinking about food. And each time I want bad foods I am to deep breath and relax all my muscles, concentrate on both and hopefully that will take away the urge to eat. My problem is I want this food. I want it all. I love this food. Frappes and candy and chips and Burger King. It is so good. So the need to deep breath is not there as I want to eat it. I actually make up my mind to eat it. I decide that it is what I must have. So I have it. No dwelling, no issue. Just eat. The other day I discoverd the Pepperidge Farm outlet store. I bought a cake and eight bags of cookies. Sigh. There is just no stopping me.
I have begun walking, about six months ago. Sue and I meet at the Rockland track at about seven every morning we can. We walk one and three quaters mile. And today I hope to begin running. I have always wanted to run. Or jog.... I plan on running for two minutes then walk for one, run for two, walk for one. etc... I want to go to Ames Nowell three times a week and practice running. Here's hoping. I am also hoping that with me beginning this blog again I can eat healthier. Here's hoping. Again. Now if only Burger King will stop making those Italian Chicken sandwitches.....
A few Tues. each month I go to Christina's to watch the Biggest Loser. I like it, a lot. I love that show. It is inspirational for me.