week 1

In one week I lost 6.8 lbs. Yea for me...but at the same time, it has been so very hard and miserable that I was pissed it wasn't 20 lbs. Unrealistic, I know, but still a bummer. Everyone I told, mostly at work, was so very happy for me etc....and of course I will contine on this hard and arduous pace. But I hate it. Hopefully it will all become second nature and all will be well. Sigh.
I enjoy the Jenny food, thankfully, and today, after talking to a Jenny consultant, I found out how to order a Funky to make it 'fit' into my 'plan'. So even though I had the Funky, and enjoyed it, I feel guilty. And then I wonder, will this be how I spend the rest of my life??? Eating so wonderfully healthy, working out four times a freaking week. And to think I am not only doing this to lose weight but also to be healthy. To get my heart back into shape and get rid of the coronary artery disease. Joy. And that irritates me too.
Yesterday, Tues., I was in a bad, slow, groggy mood all day. I got up at 530, went to gym, went to work and almost couldn't stand it all. I was moving so slow, like I was under water...what is up with that?
Today, a gym free day, was good for eating...but I hardly moved...oh well. But is sure felt good to rest, to sleep late.

getting ready to finish week one

As I am getting ready to finish my first week on Jenny I have decided to list foods I have eaten and both liked and disliked.
* means I liked it.
Breakfasts:
French Toast
*Frosted Oats cereal
*Sunshine Sandwich
*Blueberry Muffin
Oatmeal Breakfast Square
Silver Dollar Pancakes and vEggie SAusage
Lunch:
*Beef Chow Mein
Southwestern Style Chicken Burrito
Chicken Gumbo Soup
Cheesy Enchilada
Dinner:
*Chicken Carbonara
*Meatloaf with BBQ Sause
*Macaroni & cheese
*Mesquite Chicken
*Penne Pasta
sNACKS:
aNYTIME baR
*sMMORES bAR
cHEESE cURLS
*pOPCORN
*tOFEE bITES
*cHOC. cAKE
whoops, has caps locked...oh well, not retyping...:)
Anyhow, I can't wait to weigh in tomorrow night and pick out my foods for next week. I still have to have lunch and dinner today and all three tomorrow to see what else I do like or not like.

Yesterday Linda and I went for a two mile walk. That was nice, especially as it was nice out. It did get cold fast though. Was talking to Lisa a bit after my walk and it was 50 here and 75 in Franklin. Wow what a difference.
Did very well today, again, on Jenny. It helps that I like most of the foods. Tonight I get to have Penne with Marinara. Yummers. I had a salad with grilled chicken, green peppers and some feta with fat free rasp. vin. dressing. My first meal that was not Jenny. And it was wonderful. It makes me think I will go buy the makings for a salad but then again that would take away the deliciousness of getting one when I go out. HHhhhhhmmmm. What to do, what to do.
Then after the salad I worked out at the gym. I did my usual 10 whole minuted on the alyptical, and burned 150 cal. on the bike (did a 3.0 incline at 3.5 and it felt good) then used three ab machines...one of which is build almost like a chair except you cannot sit. You put your feet on what would be the sides of the chair, you support yourself with your arms on the arms of the chair and you then dangle your feet and pull both legs up, knees first. I actually did that 10 times. Wow and ow... and I did the situp machine (not only do real situps hurt my neck but so does the machine???) and a waist turning machine (my fav.).
So anyhow, after a week of being on Jenny and not cheating and also going to the gym four days and walking one day I feel pretty good about myself. Although I am getting pretty hungry right now waiting for Dave to get home from work.
Tomorrow is an exercize free day. Maybe even a read on the couch all day day. :)

ok, so I've joined Jenny Craig. A lot of money but so far it is good. I like the food and do not find myself hungry but it sure is hard to get rid of the cravings. All I've been thinking about is chocolate. And tomorrow is our spring buffet...nothing for me...and then in May I am going out with Linda and Eileen (to talk to dead folks) and we are suppose to have nachos and marguritas...? Whatever...and I am also going out with Karen to celebrate our birthdays, to Christos...more yummy food. Sigh...but I have done so good for three days...kept up with the gym, have not cheated on my diet. Yahoo for me. But listen to this...I signed up with Craig at the gym for him to teach me a lower body/abs routine...I show up at our appointed time and he acted like he wanted nothing to do with me. He brought me to the abs room and had me lie on a mat and showed me how to do crunches, 50 a day. No machines, no nothing. Then he askes how old I am and I said 40 ( only lied by a year) and he said "I am 40 too, there's no excuse" What the hell does that mean. I was so pissed. So when I told that to Andrea she said she would teach me the machines and I met her tonight and she did teach me. I was psyked...I learned three or four different ab machines...and one really hurts...but it hurts good.
So anyway, it is finally all coming together...and I am really hoping for a loss of 30 lbs. by mid August. I can do it, it hurts and I sweat way too much and my fact is way too red but that is ok. I can do it.
When I joined Jenny they asked if I had anyone to support me and I said yes, my sister. They were very happy to hear I had someone to stand behind me 100% of the way...I am lucky. And I really should not complain.

So I finally did it. I joined Jenny Craig today. I am so hoping this works. It seems really good and also really helpful and supportive. Here's hoping.
The gym went well this morning. Ten minutes on the alyptical, burned 150 calories on the tred and 50 on the bike.
I made an appt. to learn the abs machines tomorrow night. Joy.
Cn I , Will I be comfortable in a bathing suit this summer? ONly time will tell.

On Fri. I was suppose to go to the gym...but I woke up with a headache, my stomache was not right and my ankles hurt so I said nope, went back to bed. Slept till 6. Awesome feeling. Woke up better, still had headache and ankles still hurt but....
So Iwas going to work out today and guess what, headache...again. So resting and of course eating...
I forget if I metnioned to myself that that I actually got up to a run on the tredmill on Thurs. and that could be why my ankles hurt....hhhhhhmmmm

I cannot even remember when I wrote last...but I took the weekend off of the gym and it felt soooo good and relaxed. aaaaaahhhh. I am still not on a good eating plan...but I have faith that will come.
So then I began this week at the gym on Mon. at 5 AM and again Tues. at 530 AM. Very bad day Tues. Too tight pants, almost fell...very sluggish...took today off and will go both Thurs and Fri. off. I almost seem to be wanting to go....am I ill.
Watched finale of Biggest Loser. What an accomplishment they have each achieved. Man, some of them looked great. Some of them lost upwards of 100 lbs. Amazing. perserverance...will power...the want to do it...the need to do it...a miracle...i fell sick right now thinking about what a failure i am in this aspect of life. a wuss. a friggen spaghetti noodle all cooked, soft and gooey. that's me. Why do I feel so out of control of every aspect of eating. Why can I not just say that this is it...I am going to eat right from now on. I've seen my mother quit smoking much more easily that it is for me to eat right. Although she is the exception. I have known many people to quit smoking and she is the only one who did great with no cheating and handled it very impressively. Me, handling eating right, not going so well.
Kraft foods has some great 'meals' that would work well for lunch and they are ok. Some Ritz crackers, a couple pieces of turkey, cubes of cheese, grapes, red peppers with ranch dressing on the side and 100 cal. pack for dessert. Sounds great. Now to just actually get them and pack them for lunch. And then not to go across the street and buy a Snickers or a Devil Dog or a bag of chips... sigh. Now I am hungry.

I had a lot of fun completing my previous blog, even though it mentions nothing about food or exercise. I will say though, I ate chips and dip while doing it. My weekend off of the gym was nice and relaxing but tomorrow (mon.) I hope to be there by five am again.
Talked to Lisa this morn as she was on her way to the gym. Such dedication. I am envious of her enthusiasm as I have none. Sigh.

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On Fri. (yesterday) I was at the gym at 5:05 AM. Unbelievable. I still cannot believe I did it and really how easy it was (not the workout, ouch, pain, sweat) but getting up and getting there. Unfortunately I went to bed at midnight Thurs. night so I was very tired all day Fri. then stayed up till 1:00 AM. 21 hours up. I am taking the weekend off of the gym though.
I still have not regulated my eating habits yet. There is still a lot of junk food in my daily intake. Today I had a huge bagel with gobs of cream cheese, 16 oz. 1% milk (Dave could not find skim at store, silly man did not realize fat free was skim), chips and dip for lunch and a plate load of pasta with bread from bakery for dinner. I have not had dessert yet, but rest assured, I will. (from the bakery of course) And I'll probably have a drink too.
So anyhow my first full week at the gym went well. I went the four times I'd hoped. But has it only been a week and a half since I've started going.???????????????????????
I forget if I have mentioned that in May a new wii game is coming out, called wii fit or wii fittness...I am going to try it. I think. I wish there was a way of trying before buying.

Well I have been going to the gym consistantly. Once I am there I am ok, sweaty and in pain but dealing...but then I leave. And the pain really starts. When will I be able to walk normally again? And I had the hardest time today, working out. I burned 150 cal. on the tred. but only 50 on the bike and I did the alyptical (sp) for about 5 min. Yikes.
Yestereday I worked till 4, went to gym, got home at 530, met Christina at work by 550 (yes I showered and cared for pups in less than 20 min.). We went to workshop in Easton and got home at 915. What a long day. So today, got out of work at 340, worked out, home by 515, dishes, laundry, sort mail, answer email, care for dogs and collapse. Tomorrow, Wed., I am taking a break from the gym. I am going to work till 6 (closing for Sue), coming home, cooking steak and collapsing with a good book (still reading the Alpine series). I am hoping to get to the gym by 530 am Thurs. morn. I like the idea of getting it over with. My eating is still bad. I try, then I try harder, then I fail. I do good until I get hungry...then I eat whatver I have. The unfortunate part is that what I have is usually not good for me. I just wish I liked fruit and veggies. Sigh and sigh again.

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went to gym again yesterday...same sweaty story...:)
Today the front of the bottom part of my legs hurt so bad just to move...hopefully that will stop soon. Boy exercising can be frustrating and painful. I like many I am sure, wish it were a faster, easier, less painful process. SUCKS
Eating is also not fun. I ate like a pig today, felt constantly hungry. Sigh. It will come, i know it will.

Today I finally did it. I went to the gym. A 60 yr. old guy, Phil, taught me the basics of the tredmill, alypitical (sp) and bike. He said to burn 300-400 cal. four times a week to lose weight doing cardio. Well today I only burned 250 and I thought I was going to die. I was sweating so much (yuck) and I was a bit light headed. He told me to cool down a bit and I thought I had , until I stepped off the tred. I did not do the alypitical today. Just tred and bike. Next time I go, tomorrow, I plan on asking someone how to use one of the ab machines thingys. So I hope to get the cardio in then the abs on each visit for now. Phil said if I burn 1600 cal. the whole week that is like going one day without eating. Sounds good to me. He also said to expect to be hungry when you are done (i was starved) but I should try to stay away from carbs as much as possible. I came home and ate 2 pc. toast with I can't.....butter and a bowl of rasin bran crunch. Total carbs. Sigh.
It sure is hard work to burn off even one calorie. Yet they make good for you stuff a bit high in cal. For example. ff strawberry yogurt is 200 cal. So you eat disgusting food worth 200 cal then have to work out for almost an hour(at least i do) to work off a food item that was yucky to begin with. Whateva. It took me an hour to work off 250 cal. Boy do I have my work cut out for me.