Well I have completely blown it food wise. Eating right, veggies, fruit...what are they? I am still exercising four times a week though. At least that is something. Right????? I refuse to obsess over this hitch in my life (although it sounds like i am). I am happy and I love to eat. I am miserable when dieting and all I do is think about food. Although I do know I should watch a bit what I eat. I had three pieced of bday cake. And it was all good. :) Then at Terry's bridal shower I had three mini pasteries. Mmmm mmmm good!
No work tomorrow. Memorial Day. Yahoo!!! Three day weekend.

Back again, after having lost my address and all :)
So much has happened. For one, I seem to have lost control of my eating habits, again. In the past two days I have eaten fried chicken, fries, onion rings, pizza, ice cream cake, Mac Donald's, a muffin, cookies, candy bar, chips...yikes!
I am hoping to get back on track tomorrow...like the saying goes "Tomorrow is another day."
I have been keeping up with my exercise, thankfully. I actually want to work out. What's up with that???
Mom sent me a few web pages about diet and blogging. dietgirl.org, dropthefork.net and diseaseproof.com. I have them all in my fav's and hope they help me, somehow...
With all the renovations going on all my food tastes like dust (plaster and sawdust) anyhow. But does it stop me? Nope.

Once again it's been a while.
I have been doing ok...very irritated at myself...I ate Friday night at Friendly's with Linda and Kat, then at mom's on Sat. One half of a sub with turkey, roast beef, bacon and cheese. No mayo..whoop! Then a brownie, lemon tart and these disgusting nilla wafer snaker cakes...yuck. (thanks mike) But I ate them...my choice. I think in my very first blog I was irritated with the fact that there was delicious foods and fast foods. I have been craving a donut...???
Any how I came home and did an hour on the bike and 50 crunches...yahoo.
I feel miserable with my self control. Absolutely miserable. I am not a fun person to be around and I don't want to be around anyone...and I hate the fact that I have to eat fruits and veggies every single day for the rest of my life. What a boring life that is...

Today, crunches only. It is wednesday afterall. Ate well today but did have a funky fanabla, skim milk and splender...was sooooo good.
Had a Jenny S'more bar. OMG it was so good and melt in your mouth yummy. Last night, on the menu and in the book, I ate the brownie, cut in half lengthwize spread with jam and sandwiched in was two tsp low fat vanilla ice cream. mmmmmmmm

It's been a few days but once again I kept forgetting to blog...how that is possible I don't know. I am down three more lbs...yahoo...only 61 to go. How the hell did I let myself get here???
I feel I am ready to quit the gym and branch out on my own :) I have just begun yesterday and have done a good workout at home both days. I may take wed and weekends off still, or maybe not. We shall see how I feel.
Got a couple of great cookbooks from Jenny. Love them...
The good news is the meals fill me up, most of them anyhow.
Tried TaeBo tonight. OMG it was so hard. I cannot believe it. I only did about a half hour then the bike for another half hour.
Christina has begun to really eat well and exercise. Good for her. But what made me feel good is she said I was her inspiration. I, for some reason, feel good about that. She has been doing awesome...
Tomorrow is another day.

Two days since I posted...I remembered :)
I have had a really tough week. Tues. I could have eaten anyone out of house and home. I wanted six candy bars, a giant hamburger, on the grill, fries and DQ. But instead I had the half of peanut butter sandwich. God, best sandwich eva...
The rest of the week was eh..until Fri. when I had the 99. Yikes, I inhaled cheese and crackers, a chicken breast and a scoop of mashed...mmmmmmm and chocolate yogurt covered pretzels and a real hot chocolate. I was in heaven, then immediatly in hell. The overfullness, the guilt, the anger and the regret...all over food. What the Hell! And I didn't go to the gym Fri. as on Thurs. I was in a bad mood (Linda helped me by equating the feeling with like just getting through the need/want of a ciggarette). That helped. I was so miserable all day. Horrible. So I said I deserve a day off of the gym. Then to gorge Fri. night and today, no gym. No dog park (too rainy, all day). Hardly any movement...:(
Maybe tomorrow, maybe not!
But I did follow Jenny all day today anyway. And it is nine pm and I still have food to eat. That
is good.
May tomorrow be a better day...may I find love and laughter along the way. Memories of Donny and Marie.

gggrrr, what a very irritating day. everyone pissed me off, everything pissed me off. I am just so mad that I cannot eat what I want when I want...sucks. Why is the weight so easy to put on and so hard to take off? Stupid question but I still wonder. It is so hard. All I want to do is eat and eat and eat. I came home from work craving peanut butter so I had 1/2 of a peanut butter sandwich. And I feel guilty about it. Good but guilty. I hate these type of days.
I have already decided to not go to the gym tomorrow morning. I will go for a walk over the weekend instead. I just cannot even think of getting up early to go right now. I went this morn. and it did go by fast but at the same time it felt like I was moving through water.