week 1

In one week I lost 6.8 lbs. Yea for me...but at the same time, it has been so very hard and miserable that I was pissed it wasn't 20 lbs. Unrealistic, I know, but still a bummer. Everyone I told, mostly at work, was so very happy for me etc....and of course I will contine on this hard and arduous pace. But I hate it. Hopefully it will all become second nature and all will be well. Sigh.
I enjoy the Jenny food, thankfully, and today, after talking to a Jenny consultant, I found out how to order a Funky to make it 'fit' into my 'plan'. So even though I had the Funky, and enjoyed it, I feel guilty. And then I wonder, will this be how I spend the rest of my life??? Eating so wonderfully healthy, working out four times a freaking week. And to think I am not only doing this to lose weight but also to be healthy. To get my heart back into shape and get rid of the coronary artery disease. Joy. And that irritates me too.
Yesterday, Tues., I was in a bad, slow, groggy mood all day. I got up at 530, went to gym, went to work and almost couldn't stand it all. I was moving so slow, like I was under water...what is up with that?
Today, a gym free day, was good for eating...but I hardly moved...oh well. But is sure felt good to rest, to sleep late.